fuck->this->school.

I can't even believe how fucked up this whole situation is.

When I first got accepted into the Academy of Art University I was so incredibly excited, but now I find myself wondering if it was a mistake.

I was told that I would be receiving 50% off of my Fall tuition, and I'm taking four classes, so in my opinion, that meant that two of my classes in the Fall semester were going to be free. PLEASE correct me if I seem wrong about this, but I highly doubt you will.

I also haven't even found out what I'm getting for financial aid for the semester and it starts in six days. I find this ridiculous that I haven't yet received an award letter, and even when I do get it, I more than likely won't be able to afford my tuition payment due to the lack of grant money from my portfolio submission.

I don't have a clue what to do now.

Do I just wait until I see how much money I get?

Or do I say "fuck it"?

I'm not a quitter, and everything about this school still makes me ache for more knowledge, but it just seems like this is a money pit; a black, endless hole that never seems to show you the way out.

I hate how money rules this world with a blackened heart,

not caring who it helps, hurts or fails.

Lots to think about...

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in the end, this will be...it.

Gallery Nineteen, a work in progress-so many plans-and maybe too much time, yet it will never seem to be enough...
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the end of one semester, and beginning of another...

So, BIG NEWS!!!

I passed Analysis of Form, which completely and utterly shocked me!!!

And I also passed Digital Media, which I kind of expected, yet is also exciting.

So now that I'm fully registered for classes, I sit and wait to see if I scored high enough on my placement test to see if I can waive out of Composition for The Artist, which would then enable me to replace that with Narrative Storytelling, which would be fantastic!

I have a lot to work on in these next 5 months.

With my art show coming up in February, and 4 new classes starting on September 2nd, I find myself with much more on my plate now, than ever before. 

I have to create a few more masterpieces for my show so I have something new to present along with what is currently hanging on my walls remaining un-viewed by potential buyers. I should technically bring a few pieces back to A & J Florist Shop on Main Street, where they resided for about 6 months without one being sold, but that's ok, because I did sell Chaos Upon A Darkened Stage at TAMC when I showed there last year.

If you're interested in seeing it, there's a not-so-perfect image of it in my online portfolio on artbistro.monster.com/member/linrae19 that will give you a pretty good idea of the piece. I miss not seeing it everyday, but I hope his life is enriched by it. I know mine was...

So, for now, I just need to work my ass off because I'm hoping the release of the news to the local paper will get enough people in to Winter Green that will actually have intentions on buying a piece, or all of them!!

Spread the word. It'd be much appreciated!

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There were definitely some aliens up there...

So, a neat little factoid...
While over at my friend Josh's house a few weeks ago, me and my boyfriend Steve were getting ready to sit by the fire and hang out for a bit. Before we did though, I spotted something in the sky; it was bright orange, kind of glowing, and it was moving REALLY fast. It seemed so close to his house, almost like it might fall from the sky and land on top of us. Fortunately for us, it did not, but it scared me there for a little bit. After a minute or two of watching it, it faded out and then disappeared completely. Four minutes goes by and another comes flying out of nowhere, in the complete opposite direction. There's no way it could have been the same one. They both had gone in the same general direction, but I didn't think much of it at first, until I saw about 8 jets flying the same way over the course of the coming hour. I mean, they weren't one right after another but 8 in one hour, zooming through the sky like some fucking fighter pilots?
What the fuck is going on up there???
I don't know if these were being chased, or were chasing something, but after that, I kept seeing all these weird moving dots up in the sky.
I think we should be a bit more concerned with what's up there and what is being covered up that we're not supposed to know about.
Might be good to look into...
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AAU: Just The Beginning...

Students at the Academy of Art University have a wide range of resources available to them to kick start their specified degree program. If you have a sheer passion for the industry of art & an eagerness to further your talent, the Academy of Art University will most definitely lead you down the right path. With the perfect mixture of traditional & classical studies along with a modern approach to teaching, the material in any degree program is sure to ground you in the medium that matters most to you.

First time students aren't typically found to be flawless, yet you'll discover that the further you get into your focus of why you're actually here, the easier it is to see how much your creative mind has expanded.


When I first decided to learn more about the Academy, I was apprehensive to take the first step into what was so unfamiliar to me, and that was the professional art world. For so long, I had sat in my apartment doing my own thing, painting until my hands ached, my mind jumbled, my eyes aching for sleep. I've done a lot of work on my own, but never enough to start filling a portfolio, and definitely not anything that was impressively done in charcoal. But that all changed once the first day of the semester came and I was forced to take the plunge into Analysis of Form, the hardest class I think I've experienced thus far. But with hard work comes the rewarding feeling that you've done great things, soaked up some amazing material and best of all, urged yourself to be better than you ever thought possible.
Now, as we wait for final grades to be posted to face what we worked so hard for, I find myself nervous once again, wondering if my hard work actually got me through it all. And I know I could have done better, but I still gained an immense amount of technique and developed a skill set that I'll carry with me through the rest of my time here and into the career that I've been longing for. Without the above mentioned resources, I never would have made it through this roller coaster ride of a journey. And that's how I know that I'll eventually make it through. It's gonna be one hell of a ride...
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